Changes

Posted by Morgan
I have realized something about myself. I am very good at investing where I am....and it get really hard for me to let go of where I am. I know when it's time to move on, but it's hard for me. I guess it's just a testament to how much I care for my friends and all the people around me.

I started packing up my room at school today and let me just say that it was a lot harder than I was anticipating. I'm sad because something that has been a big part of my life this past year is ending. Yes, I'm coming back, but with different roommates and suitemates and it's really sad to me. Change is hard at times....I'm not really a huge fan of change but I know it's necessary. Just being the kind of person I am and caring as much as I do, change can be hard. But it's okay. I know that the change is good, and I know that the change is necessary.


Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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Posted by Morgan
I know, it's been awhile. I need to get back into the habit of blogging..it's very theraputic for me.

Well, what have the last two month been like? Well up until recently they have been absolutely fantastic. They really have. I have an amazing group of friends and I am really loving being where I am. I know I'm where I'm supposed to be. But the last two weeks have been really hard, and they have been hard for absolutely no particular reason at all. Everything has been going great and there shouldn't be anything to upset me, I mean, I finally declared a major for crying out loud, I should be shouting from a mountain top! But I'm not, and I don't know why.

It wasn't until a few days ago that I really think I'm realizing what's been going on. I have no idea why I didn't see it before, but I'm still not entirely sure what it is, but that will all make sense in time. So stick with me.

When you are seeking the Lord, and you are truly following Him, the enemy will try to attack you in some way. If you aren't seeking the Lord and doing His will, Satan has nothing to be concerned about. But if you are following Him, He's going to use you, and Satan is not going to like that very much. Well, that's where I've been and I'm starting  to see how Satan attacks me, specifically, how he attacks me at school.

My heart is for the Lord. My heart is to seek Him with all that I have. I love journaling, I love spending time with Him, I love reading my Bible, and I love learning about God and from Him, too.  That's who I am. I am a daughter of the Lord. That is who I am. And I know that and I will walk in the confidence that gives me.

Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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A New Perspective

Posted by Morgan
You know, coming into this semester I had a lot of things set in my mind. I had a lot of preconceived ideas about how this semester would play out. Wow was I wrong. Not only has the first month of this semester been completely different than I thought, I have actually enjoyed myself so much, this semester has been 10 hundred times better than last semester. I have met some amazing new people and I love making new friends. :) It's so much fun. 

I don't know what the Lord has planned for next semester, or even if there is a next semester for me here.....but whatever the outcome, I know that God is in control and he's watching out for me. 

I'm still seeking the Lord on his direction for my life, but I'm living in the here and now and being where I am. I don't know what the future holds....and that's okay.

Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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Be confident!!

Posted by Morgan
I'm learning so much right now. Simple lessons that have been told to me for years, but yet, for some reason, I'm now learning how they apply and affect my life. 

Be confidant in who you are. It's so true. I know this, and I learned a lot about this and learning how to walk this out at IMPACT, but I'm re-learning it in a new way. It's easy to do that kind of stuff at IMPACT where the community is great and the acceptance is pretty certain. But at college people don't have to like you, they don't have to see you every day, and some people don't like who you are. And that's okay.

Be yourself. There is so much power in standing firm and walking in who Christ has made you to be. That's my challenge for you. It's simple and sounds very middle school-ish. But don't lose sight of who you are. Don't get swept away in school work and activities that you constantly adapt to the surroundings to blend in. Be who you are, and if you stand out because you love Jesus - that's even better!

Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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10 Things

Posted by Morgan
I think it might be possible that the best blog posts come out of pure procrastination.

I've been thinking a lot about being myself lately. What does that look like and who I am. And also, how to not let others opinions influence me and my stance on things. Now, some of the things on this list I'm about to embark on making are shallow and silly, but some have a bigger meaning. But all of this is part of me. You'll see! :)

1. I like Lucky Charms and yes I know there absolutely no nutritional value in them. I mean, come on it's marshmallows in cereal....how do you not love that?! They are magically delicious. And the rainbow is my favorite marshmallow, because even in a silly thing like lucky charms, I am still reminded of the promise God made when he created the first rainbow in the sky. :)

2. I don't match my socks. EVER. I think it makes life a little more enjoyable and fun. I mean, everyone matches their socks....be a little different, don't give in to peer pressure, don't conform to society!!! haha. Okay, maybe the last one is a little bit extreme, but still. Be different. 

3. I like cats. Yes, cats. The animal. The creature that God created. I don't care if you call them the spawn of Satan, or you call them devil cats.  I love them. And just as a side note to call you cat haters, you probably shouldn't call a part of God's creation a spawn of Satan...I'm just saying. ;)

4. I like the rain. I like before it rains, while it's raining, and after it rains. It makes me think about life and how storms will come and stuff will get hard, but one day the rain will clear and the sun will shine and everything will be beautiful again. I probably like the rain because God's taught me a lot of hard lessons when I was actually IN the rain. Also, everything it's raining, I want to either do one of two things: 1. Go play in it and jump in puddles. or 2. Go run it in. I wanna grab my iPod and tennis shoes and go run! I love it. (disclaimer: I still reserve the right to complain about the rain from time to time haha)


5. When I sing, I don't wear shoes if I can. For me, music is what takes me into God's presence. To me, it's Holy ground.


6. I like to eat healthy and I do like to exercise, but when I want to, I'm going to eat a cookie. Or a piece of cake, or something. I love chocolate.


7. I hate it when girls don't feel beautiful and comfortable in who they are. I want to help girls understand that God made them beautiful, and he loves them the way they are!! It's something I'm finally coming to grasp. People are beautiful to me. My friend told me the other day that she didn't know an ugly person, and I began to think about it, and I realized, I don't either. I love to beauty in people. I want God to continue to let me see people the way he does.


8. I don't wear make-up half the time, and when I do it's pretty light. I love going natural. I feel free, if that makes sense. I don't ever want make-up to become a crutch for me. I don't ever want it to become something I hide behind. Make-up is NOT bad at all. I like it. But for me, I never want to hide who I am behind a pretty face of make-up. I want make-up to enhance the beauty God has given me.

9. I want to face hard situations and react with joy and hope to see what God is going to do. That's my desire, and with God's help, I'm slowly getting there.


10. I just want to be myself. I never want to compromise who I am because of the people or circumstance around me. I want to always be me 24/7.



Singing Harmony,
Morgan

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God is Good

Posted by Morgan
It's always amazing to me how God provides just what we need when we need it. And I think that if that ever STOPS amazing me then I will be worried. I never want to take the amazing things God does for granted.

I went home this weekend, and let's just say it did not go according to plan whatsoever. You know, so far, 2010 has not gone as planned. I guess that's one more way of God telling me that my life is not my own and that he has a better plan. Well anyway, I was told to check my email one morning over the weekend, and when I logged on I received this wonderful list of all the things someone loves about me - MADE MY DAY.

God is good.

Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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Never Forgotten

Posted by Morgan
I realized something this morning. I am 100% okay with being myself. I'm quickly getting to the point where that really is okay with me. Yeah, I certainly have my quirks, and I get goofy and weird from time to time - just ask my roommate and suite-mates. But I'm okay with that.

I'm okay with having a sensitive heart. It's part of who I am. I'm a compassionate person. It's how God made me. I care about people and I care about my friends. It's part of who I am. I know that I will still struggle with certain things from time to time as every one does. But this morning and today I just had this revelation when I was sitting listening to some of my friends talk. 

In order to explain I must first backtrack a little, so here we go. A lot of the time I feel like I am a forgettable person, and it has always been quite frustrating to me. I love my friends and I never want to leave anyone out, but a lot of the time I feel left out. Sometimes this is a legitimate feeling, and sometimes this is the extremely sensitive side of me that takes over and I have to give myself a reality check. But I have come a long way with this, and for that I am thankful because I know I could not have come this far without Jesus Christ.

As I sat listening to them talk about things and conversations they had when they hung out and I wasn't there, amazingly, I was like okay whatever. I love my friends, I truly do, and if you are reading this and don't know me, please believe that I do. And if you are reading this and you do know me, I truly hope you know that. 

This calming feeling came over me as I listened to them talk and God said to me, Morgan, it's okay. Soon there will be a person in your life who will never forget you. And until he comes, know that I have NEVER forgotten you.

I'm good with being me. I'm good with being who I am and resting in knowing that God loves me. I love to be included yes, but I don't want to be included out of obligation. I'm good with being me. And I have peace knowing that I am never forgotten by God, and one day there will be a man who will never forget me either.

SInging Harmony,
Morgan
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