Most of you reading this are well aware of my love for music, and also, how often God speaks to me through music. Well there is this song by Shane & Shane that has been on my heart basically since I got to Lee about a week and a half ago. It's called "Be Near". It was a huge comfort to me, and I've tried to right about it, but honestly, I can't say it any better than the song already does. And if you've not heard it, I strongly, STRONGLY, encourage you to do so right now by clicking here! So here we go.
"You are all
big and small
beautiful
and wonderful
to trust in grace through faith
but i'm asking to taste...
for dark is light to You
depths are height to You
far is near
but Lord, i need to hear from You
be near, oh God
be near, oh God of us
Your nearness is to us our good
be near, oh God
be near, oh God of us
Your nearness is to us our good, our good
Your fullness is mine
revelation divine
but, o, to taste
to know much more than a page
to feel Your embrace...
for dark is light to You
the depths are height to You
far is near, but Lord
i need to hear from You
be near, oh God
be near, oh God of us
Your nearness is to us our good
be near, oh God
be near, oh God of us
Your nearness is to us our good, our good"
-Be Near by Shane & Shane
It's simply amazing. It's been a huge comfort to be being here at Lee. I love you all.
Singing Harmony,
Morgan
Well I've mentioned my next door neighbors before. I absolutely adore them. Abbey just turned 4 in July, which is so hard for me to believe, because I've known that family since her older sister turned 1!! I have so many memories with that family. I even remember when Angie told me that she was pregnant with Abbey. So all that to say that I love this family so much.
Well, I moved into my dorm room on Friday, and so on Thursday I went over to their house to tell them goodbye. And when I walked in Abbey was running around - she has constant energy, sometime I'm positive there is Red Bull in that apple juice. ;) Well, I said, "Abbey, come here and give me a hug!" And so she came skipping over, her cute little curls bouncing around her shoulders as she did, and she nearly knocked me over with the force of her hug. As she leaned back from hugged me she leaned in to give me a kiss, and being the little four year-old that she is, all that she has seen of kissing is her mommy and daddy kiss. So she leans in and kisses me on the lips, leaving her colored LipSmakers on my face, and when she pulls back she put her arms around my neck and looked intently into my eyes and says, "Morgan, do you have a boyfriend?" And I looked right at that little face, which was grinning at me, and I looked at that smile, which contributed to her sparkling eyes and little dimples on her cheeks, and I said, "No, Abbey, I don't." And she leaned in toward my face, eyes sparkling, and she said so confidently, "He'll find you!" It was very matter of fact, and after she said it she leaned back and bounced away to be energetic and share her joyful little self in another part of the house.
I sat there amazed at how God can speak through a little child. When I told that story to one of my guy friends here at school, he said, "Little kids can be so prophetic." And they so can. My four year-old neighbor did not know that I had been thinking about relationships and marriage, she did not know that I had been seriously asking God why He hadn't brought that person along yet. And yet, she leans in to my face and says in a very matter of fact way, "He will find you." And I was speechless. But I seriously believe with all my heart that those words were from God...speaking through my four year-old neighbor.
I was reminded just moments ago of the things that I have to appreciate in God right now. Things I DON'T have to wait for. I dear, dear, dear, friend of mind reminded me that in Christ, I have all I need. Every need, every desire, every longing to feel wanted and to have the attention of a Godly man, all of it and so much more, must first be found in Christ before He can give it to me in that person He has created for me. And she put it so beautifully, and perfectly, this way:
"He must wholly have my heart before another may seek it out.
He is worthy of my devotion, my trust, my whole attention, my patience.
He alone will satisfy my heart’s cry to be cherished, and to be prized."
Right now I am continuing to learn about full dependency on Christ. Finding my fulfillment in Him, which, when you are on a campus where, as my roommate and I are realizing, many people come to find The One, it's pretty stinking hard to keep your eyes fixed on Christ. But I'm learning, sometimes it's a day to day thing, and sometimes it's a second to second thing. It's hard, but what I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that I am honoring Christ by waiting on the one. By waiting for Him to bring that person to me. I know that. And what's even more, is that God has said wait. He specifically told me that right now, it is not the time. So I'm learning to patiently wait on the Lord.
My life kind of reminds me of the While I'm Waiting song by John Waller. I'm waiting on the Lord. I'm seeking Him on many things right now, but while I'm doing that I'm serving, I'm loving, and I'm working on being a light for Him on this campus where I see so many hurting people.
I'm learning so much right now...and classes haven't even started. College rocks. ;)
Singing Harmony to the King of Kings,
Morgan
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The place is insane. I can't believe I'm here. In a way it feels surreal and in a way it's possibly the saddest thing ever.
First, it's exciting because well first of all, I LOVE my roommate, which is such a relief. We get along really well and we just click - huge answer to prayer!! And I love the campus, I love my room, I'm even excited about the actual school work itself. The campus really is beautiful...and I'm really looking forward to living here...even though I'm living in hicksville! Like I'm not even kidding...I saw a lady at walmart today who had a mullet.
Second, being enrolled in college, having a room, getting my books, going through orientation, all of that....it's constanty reminding me that life is moving so fast. I have three years left...and then I'm out of college. And in the grand scheme of things, that's not that long. I guess the past two days have been like a wake up call in a way. I'm kind of an adult and I'm living three hours from home. I'm so scared but excited at the same time.
Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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As the move in date for college is quickly drawing closer, I can't help but feel sad. I know that college will be an adventure and I know that God has a plan for me at school, but words cannot begin to express how deeply I desire to be going somewhere familiar. Starting all over again is just scary to me. I know that I will meet people and make friends, but goodness, if I could just go to something familiar. The unknown is just....well it feels so unpredictable. I want something familiar, but I know that in following Christ we will not always be returning to the same place. We won't always know what we are getting into, or where we are going for that matter. I know that following Christ is rewarding and an adventure, and hard, but sometimes easy would be nice. But when things are easy, you don't learn anything. You don't get to experience trusting Him to take care of you. You don't get to rely fully on Him when you have some form of control over your life. I'm heading off to college. I'm getting a new roommate, I'm getting all new people to know, I'm starting my college experience. Goodness gracious. Crazy scary...but crazy fun. So I'm ready, but I'm sad too. I know this post has been me going back and fourth arguing about how I feel going off to college....I'm so ADD. I need to decide how I feel and stick to it. ;)
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