There have been times in my life that I have prayed for the Lord to completely invade my heart and my life and to completely consume all of me. I prayed that my life would be glorifying to the Lord and that whatever it took to take me there, I'd do it. I would walk the path, I would weather the storm. Well, let me just tell you, the first time that I remember praying that exact prayer at 15 or 16, I had no idea what that would actually look like, and to be honest, if I had, I don't know that I would have prayed that. But looking back, I'm glad I did.
This season of life is so difficult and so trying. I know that God is working in my heart and in my life - I can see that and I can sense the change that is happening inside of me. I am starting to see the Lord answer prayers that I prayed a long time ago and I had no idea that the answer to prayers that, in their essence are so good and pure, would be so hard. But now that I am seeing the result, it makes sense. And let me just tell you, it is not exactly a walk in the park.
But God is good. I think I have said that in almost every single post the last six months. I am seeing the purpose of walking through these trials. I am seeing the purpose of the Lord strengthening my foundations. I see SO much purpose. I know that Lord is working and I know that ultimately, all these things will work together to bring glory to the Lord, and that truly is what I want.
So I'm pretty much back where I started. I'm surrendering. I'm surrendering all of me. All my hearts desires - all of it. I'm listening to what the Lord is telling me to do and where he is guiding me. I'm waiting on his perfect timing because I am constantly reminded that his ways and his plans are far better than my own. I'm walking with the Lord in a whole new and intimate way. I'm working on some other posts about the things that God has been doing in my heart - and I can't wait till I can fully form the words to express it :) it has been pretty neat.
Walking with the Lord is an adventure every day and I honestly never know where the day will end up. Today I've ended up on my couch in my apartment just soaking in the presence of the Lord. I am resting in the comfort that he brings. My heart is at peace in the midst of chaos. It's a beautiful thing.
Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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