I love Lee's campus when it rains. I know most people hate those gloomy days, but I love them. I think a lot on rainy days. I love walking in the rain. For some reason rain makes me feel alive. I love feeling the rain hit my face. My new favorite thing since I've come to college has been running in the rain. It's rained a lot up here, it actually poured a couple of weeks ago. And guess what I did, I went running.
That week had been particularly hard for me personally, as I struggled, and continue to struggle, with what I'm doing here. I was really upset, about what I don't quite remember, and so I heard the rain begin to pour down and I was like, I'm going! So I did. I put my iPod in on shuffle, and I step out of the bottom door of my dorm and I took off running. It didn't take long before I was soaking wet. It was a pretty surreal time because in my head it was like a scene from a movie. I've got the music blaring in my ears and I'm running and I begin crying in the rain, and I'm talking to God, more like yelling at Him in my head. As soon as I started running I said, "Okay, God. I need some answers. I'm not going to stop running until I have some." Scary thing to say, right? Yeah tell me about it.
So I run, and I run, and I'm running all around campus and I'm soaking wet at this point. And I just kept asking God why. Why in the world am I in college? What am I doing here? Why did You tell me to come here? Why haven't you told me what you want me to do? WHY, God, WHY?!?!?!?!?!? And the rain had stopped to a light sprinkle, and the clouds were starting to pull back as I ran over by the library. I sat down on one of the benches and kept praying and going God, is this really where you want me? And then I sat there, in tears, and I began listening to the song that was playing on my iPod. And it was a BarlowGirl song and this is what it said:
"Good morning
The night is over and gone
I thought once
This dark would last for so long
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Do you see
Just what you've done in my life?
You gave me
More then I hoped for; now I
Feel your sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place"
I thought once
This dark would last for so long
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Do you see
Just what you've done in my life?
You gave me
More then I hoped for; now I
Feel your sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place"
You Led Me by BarlowGirl
When I started listening to the song, it was on the first verse, and when it got to the pre-chorus of "feel your sunlight on my face" it was like something from a movie. I was sitting there listening to it...in tears, and when it said sunlight, the clouds pulled back on the sun shown right through the trees directly on to my face. The timing could have only been God. And then I listened to the song all the way through and I came out with the following conclusion.
God's brought me here. He's brought me to Lee, He's got a plan for me. I have no idea what that is, but hey, I know He directed me here. He clearly showed me that...and it was amazing! :) I love it when God shows me in ways like that...it's always so memorable.
Singing Harmony,
Morgan
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