Well, I moved into my dorm room on Friday, and so on Thursday I went over to their house to tell them goodbye. And when I walked in Abbey was running around - she has constant energy, sometime I'm positive there is Red Bull in that apple juice. ;) Well, I said, "Abbey, come here and give me a hug!" And so she came skipping over, her cute little curls bouncing around her shoulders as she did, and she nearly knocked me over with the force of her hug. As she leaned back from hugged me she leaned in to give me a kiss, and being the little four year-old that she is, all that she has seen of kissing is her mommy and daddy kiss. So she leans in and kisses me on the lips, leaving her colored LipSmakers on my face, and when she pulls back she put her arms around my neck and looked intently into my eyes and says, "Morgan, do you have a boyfriend?" And I looked right at that little face, which was grinning at me, and I looked at that smile, which contributed to her sparkling eyes and little dimples on her cheeks, and I said, "No, Abbey, I don't." And she leaned in toward my face, eyes sparkling, and she said so confidently, "He'll find you!" It was very matter of fact, and after she said it she leaned back and bounced away to be energetic and share her joyful little self in another part of the house.
I sat there amazed at how God can speak through a little child. When I told that story to one of my guy friends here at school, he said, "Little kids can be so prophetic." And they so can. My four year-old neighbor did not know that I had been thinking about relationships and marriage, she did not know that I had been seriously asking God why He hadn't brought that person along yet. And yet, she leans in to my face and says in a very matter of fact way, "He will find you." And I was speechless. But I seriously believe with all my heart that those words were from God...speaking through my four year-old neighbor.
I was reminded just moments ago of the things that I have to appreciate in God right now. Things I DON'T have to wait for. I dear, dear, dear, friend of mind reminded me that in Christ, I have all I need. Every need, every desire, every longing to feel wanted and to have the attention of a Godly man, all of it and so much more, must first be found in Christ before He can give it to me in that person He has created for me. And she put it so beautifully, and perfectly, this way:
"He must wholly have my heart before another may seek it out.
He is worthy of my devotion, my trust, my whole attention, my patience.
He alone will satisfy my heart’s cry to be cherished, and to be prized."
Right now I am continuing to learn about full dependency on Christ. Finding my fulfillment in Him, which, when you are on a campus where, as my roommate and I are realizing, many people come to find The One, it's pretty stinking hard to keep your eyes fixed on Christ. But I'm learning, sometimes it's a day to day thing, and sometimes it's a second to second thing. It's hard, but what I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that I am honoring Christ by waiting on the one. By waiting for Him to bring that person to me. I know that. And what's even more, is that God has said wait. He specifically told me that right now, it is not the time. So I'm learning to patiently wait on the Lord.
My life kind of reminds me of the While I'm Waiting song by John Waller. I'm waiting on the Lord. I'm seeking Him on many things right now, but while I'm doing that I'm serving, I'm loving, and I'm working on being a light for Him on this campus where I see so many hurting people.
I'm learning so much right now...and classes haven't even started. College rocks. ;)
Singing Harmony to the King of Kings,
Morgan
3 comments:
That's awesome, Morg. Sounds like things are working out just dandy.
awww what a cute story! you write stories really well, btw.
Anyway, you are in a good place. remember at reunion when we said that dependence on the Lord was what we wanted to experience the most this year!? Sounds like you're on track!
Love you
tiff
How cute! (it's encouraging to me as well) Keep looking for those "God moments." He can use anything!
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